As anybody who has lost someone close to them can tell you, the funeral gives you a strange kind of focus. I knew that God was not responsible for any of this—that God does not kill children or parents or burn down houses. God cried first.
I had seen a psychiatrist, who gave me prescriptions for three drugs he said I needed to take: Xanax, Klonopin, and Ativan. But being in a constant drug-induced semi-coma made everything worse.
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Across from my room was the electric shock—therapy treatment center, and I watched some of the other patients lined up in the hallways on gurneys to wait their turn. So mostly I just lay in my room as doctors and nurses came in to talk to me; within minutes, most of them were crying. Over the next week, I tried everything: I threw myself on the floor at the mercy of the hospital director, pleading and crying for him to let me out; I spent some time at what was billed as a trauma-therapy center outside Nashville, by which time my hair was coming out in clumps.
At times I was manic; at other times, almost catatonically depressed. I need to talk to somebody.
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I need help. Kate is one of the most spectacular people I know and had come for the funeral and helped me write the eulogy. I was lying through my teeth. At that point I was far closer to killing myself than I was at any other point during the tragedy—I felt sure it was my only option. I started seeing Dr. Smith and my appointed therapist, Dr.
Betty Everett, every day, and at Dr.
I was willing to try anything to feel better. Kate is a rare-books dealer, and she has a friend named June—an extraordinary woman who runs estate sales and has something like , square feet of warehouse space filled with rugs and antiques and china. Opening one of her boxes, one might find an antique doll, a teapot cozy—and a complete set of early—twentieth century sterling silver from Tiffany. Every day was an actual treasure trove. But more important, as I spent day upon day going through box upon box looking for beautiful objects, two things happened.
One, I had to stay in the present moment. The second thing was that as we found old photographs, I was forced to reckon with loss, with transience. I came to understand and be at peace with the notion that the people in the pictures I was looking at were all gone now—that the little girl in who owned the doll I was holding in my hands was dead; that all this stuff was really just the ephemera that gets left behind.
There was really no judgment about it.
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Little by little, I was getting my brain back online. With each passing day I had more and more plans. Going back to New York was still out of the question—I thought I had to change everything and was going to become an antiques dealer in Little Rock. God bless Kate and June for playing along. In October, Kate and I traveled to the Marburger antiques show in Texas—this huge, high-end fair located in a tiny town halfway between Houston and Austin—where June let us take over her booth and do whatever we wanted.
I thought this was fantastic: We were going to figure out the whole operation and be a great success.
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I literally did not sell a thing. I think it might be time for me to think about going back. First, though, I had to get through Christmas. I knew that the mere feeling in the air—the falling temperature, the fading light—would be more than I could bear. A couple in Colorado had started it in the name of their twelve-year-old daughter, who had died.
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